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last weekend we made the almost impossible journey from utara to selatan after much debates and nagging from mama n hubby.thank god i was not having severe cramps.i told myself and every muscles in my body..please be strong to tahan the long journey.please please please allow me to go and see my luvly friend shaz on her wedding day..i swear in this world there are only 2 weddings compulsory for me to attend,its a sin if i didnt go.hers is one of them.alhamdullilah..i got to see her as non double chin no spare tyre glamorous fabulous ratu sehari.i am so happy for her..god knows when is the next time we'll be meeting each other again.tapi mmg puas hati eden

after balik rase kesian sgt tgk my hero..hubby huhu.he looked so tired having to drive all the way.massaging me,entertaining my antics,taking care of me every steps of the way.he just smiled and smiled..i heart you B.thank you so much for doing this for me.it means the world to me.sayang janji nanti sayang bagi upah best heheh

we got to do detail scan for munchkin also.munchkin looks so healthy and happy.she already has a good weight..2.5kg.which is bigger than me when i was born.way to go anak mummy!

hmm now im just waiting to do my last call.tak sabar nak abiskan so that i can focus on preparing for munchkin.i think most of her things are ready but my things are far from packed.i pray that she doesnt choose to pop out too early hehe

what i wanna do

but i cant..yet!

laser eye treatment..bile glasses ade masalah n mata menjadi rabun..and my colleague said she cud drive to the hospital for check up only after 1 day post treatment..
rase nak oncall back to back to make the money for the cost..it costs a fortune!!
(untuk org mcm saye laaa huhu)

not to terasa when some people say/do sth..but i still do..well we are human beings..nak buat camne..buat bodo je laa
agar tiada perang dunia tercetus semula

tak penat lepas oncall and ceria untuk berjalan/beraktiviti ke mana2 bile hubby/family ajak saye..susah woooo
sangat susah..try laaa oncall..try sendiri
lagi tak try kompem tak paham
sorg staff nurse saye yg dah keje berpuluh tahun kat sepital tuh smalam tanye camne oncall ni sebenanye..cite la kat die..so die tanye saye..apsal laa dr nak jadi dr??saye cakap..dah termaktub dlm idop saye agaknye
see !org yg keje ngan kitorg pon tak paham..ape lagi org yang penah masuk sepital untuk melawat sahaja..i wont waste my time to make u guys understand..

risau nih takut ade anak kang ngantuk mase jage die lepas oncall..tapi colleagues saye ok je..shud be ok kot..
its all about willpower!!

nak masuk sehati berdansa..best tgk org dancing ngan spouse ni..sangat suweeeeetttt..

fear

we are at the 8th month..

work is still as bz as ever..had a dragging meeting today..the conclusion is a new motto for our department..WORK LESS AND GET PROMOTED!its a long story..

btw..im just feel like writing bout my random thoughts

am afraid of a lot of things lately

been asking around for a nanny..many are interested..my heart just didnt have enough trust to leave my lil baby with anyone except hubby..unfortunately he obviously wont make to the list of possible nanny..except maybe during the weekend

bibik?bottom most in the list..dont want my baby to speak with a weird accent plus i am not comfortable having a stranger in the house

second..fear of having to go through a caesarean..at 32 weeks,baby is still breech..aka upside down with its legs nicely tucked in front of its belly which makes vaginal birth impossible.im praying everyday that it'll turn while doing its sommersault..c-section comes with a lot of complications hence i would do anything to avoid it

third..fear of not being good enough a parent..well if u look at my diet during my pregnancy..u'll understand what i mean.while other mothers are bz storing as much nutrients as possible for their babies..i just eat anything i could grab..while they are researching for ways to teach their babies calculus from an early stage..i just slept on my non call nights..or maybe tried to bloghop and learn something..rarely..

and the list goes on and on..

cant even take good care of hubby..how am i going to take care of a small baby all alone..

i have to take a deep breath and relax...in and out..in and out..phewwww

on a different note

i HEART fresh orange..cant get enough of em..slurp!if bole dapat segelas now heavennyerrrrrr